I want to start by saying "thank you " for all of the sweet and heartfelt words on yesterday's post. It is so helpful to be able to put down in words what my heart if feeling.
You would think after 5 years the girls' birthday would get easier, but alas it just doesn't. I do give thanks that the rest of the year is much better than it used to be. I may rail against God in one breath but in the next I must give thanks for all the amazing blessings He has given me including and especially the 5 healthy kids I get to hug every day (well except the ones away at college but I can still call and talk to them and give them a hug via their cell phones!)
I want to extend my deepest sympathy and regrets to the many of you that understand so intimately the pain of losing a child. It always breaks my heart to learn so many parents must endure and learn to live with this unique and lifelong pain. I'm so very, very, sorry.
You can choose to dwell on the loss of yesterday and ultimately lose the joy of today or you can choose to focus on what wonderful things you have in your life so as to hold onto today's happiness and ultimately the happiness of your future. My journal 2 years ago
...I choose the latter.
