It has been 7 years ago today that I held my twin daughters for the first time.
It was 7 years ago today that I counted 20 tiny tiny fingers and 20 perfect toes.
7 years ago today I kissed two tiny heads in two impossibly tiny bonnets
7 years ago today I said hello and goodbye in the same halting breath...
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It was 7 years ago today that I thought I could never possibly be happy or whole again.
7 years ago today my heart was shattered. I could not catch my breath for the pain was unbearable and never ending.
7 years ago I was sure I would never again see a day in my life without tears...
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7 years ago today God took me in His arms and started to heal me.
He didn't take the pain away but gave me the strength to live with it.
He didn't erase the memories of their birth but made me thankful for the short time I had with them.
He didn't take away my loss but added blessings to my life in ways I never thought possible.
For 7 years ago today Faith Elizabeth and Hope Katherine were born sleeping and 7 years ago today I became intimately aware of just how precious and fleeting life is.
How could it be 7 years since I've held you?
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Happy birthday my sweet, sweet girls.
I will never forget the lessons your short lives have taught me.
And I look forward to holding you again someday.
Love, your mama
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The Garden of What Might have Been. Pt. 1
Loss of a Child and Forgiveness. Pt. 2
